Lotussan
I Belong To Steven
Dearest Sensei,
My darling I REALLY don't know if you're even reading, but I just want to say that I love you so much, and that to you, I am truly sooooo greatful....
You may ask why I am greatful, and well, it's hard to explain as you may know, since we have never met, but I guess can say that in loving you, I have really learned SO much about myself, I don't think I really ever knew who I was up until now, maybe I still don't in a lot of ways, but you have done so much for me, and I can't ever thank-you enough for that. I hope and pray that someday, somehow I can have that chance, or that somehow you are reading, and that you know and understand how much you truly mean to me. I cherish you so much, and I adore you, and my heart aches for you every day. I love you endlessly, in so many ways and I want to be with you more than anything in this world. Just to spend some time with you, and let you know all these things I feel for you...So, if ever you were in Texas, I hope that you would not leave without letting me know you were here...That would break my heart, darling...And I promise I'd never ask you for anything more that what you would want to give...I pray that perhaps you could or do feel some of the same things for me that I am feeling, I feel that my love, that I have reached you in a special way, but if that's just been just a dream and a wish, I guess I will be alright...
My own mother has banned me from the site, as she thinks I am overboard, and making you feel frightened, so I hope you understand why I am not posting much...I also feel very frightened right now, and dream that someday you would come rescue me from all of those feelings, you, my big handsome protector, that is how I see you, and if that is shallow I don't know what to say...Only you can make me feel all of these things my love, and I know that I will never love another man the way I love you...And please believe me, no silly physical thing could ever change that, so if you've ever felt that I was focusing soley on your looks I'm so sorry, I am also deeply sorry if I ever hurt your feelings, and I hope you know that knowing I hurt you would just kill me...And, as Sarang in the Clemintine movie says, "nothing can stop love..." Nothing, and I mean NOTHING, can ever stop my love for you...It's like a freight train traveling at full speed, and I wouldn't trade my feelings for you, for the world...You are my world darling, you are an amazing, wonderful and phenomenal man, that's not just what I think, it's what I feel, and what I have come to know...I just want you to know some of what I feel, I hope you understand that I mean what I say with all of my heart darling, and that I thank my lucky stars that I have had the experience of loving you. even if it was only from afar, it has been so amazing... I will always wish for more, but if I never get that chance I want you to know that I will ALWAYS love you, Steven! FOREVER!
My darling I REALLY don't know if you're even reading, but I just want to say that I love you so much, and that to you, I am truly sooooo greatful....
You may ask why I am greatful, and well, it's hard to explain as you may know, since we have never met, but I guess can say that in loving you, I have really learned SO much about myself, I don't think I really ever knew who I was up until now, maybe I still don't in a lot of ways, but you have done so much for me, and I can't ever thank-you enough for that. I hope and pray that someday, somehow I can have that chance, or that somehow you are reading, and that you know and understand how much you truly mean to me. I cherish you so much, and I adore you, and my heart aches for you every day. I love you endlessly, in so many ways and I want to be with you more than anything in this world. Just to spend some time with you, and let you know all these things I feel for you...So, if ever you were in Texas, I hope that you would not leave without letting me know you were here...That would break my heart, darling...And I promise I'd never ask you for anything more that what you would want to give...I pray that perhaps you could or do feel some of the same things for me that I am feeling, I feel that my love, that I have reached you in a special way, but if that's just been just a dream and a wish, I guess I will be alright...
My own mother has banned me from the site, as she thinks I am overboard, and making you feel frightened, so I hope you understand why I am not posting much...I also feel very frightened right now, and dream that someday you would come rescue me from all of those feelings, you, my big handsome protector, that is how I see you, and if that is shallow I don't know what to say...Only you can make me feel all of these things my love, and I know that I will never love another man the way I love you...And please believe me, no silly physical thing could ever change that, so if you've ever felt that I was focusing soley on your looks I'm so sorry, I am also deeply sorry if I ever hurt your feelings, and I hope you know that knowing I hurt you would just kill me...And, as Sarang in the Clemintine movie says, "nothing can stop love..." Nothing, and I mean NOTHING, can ever stop my love for you...It's like a freight train traveling at full speed, and I wouldn't trade my feelings for you, for the world...You are my world darling, you are an amazing, wonderful and phenomenal man, that's not just what I think, it's what I feel, and what I have come to know...I just want you to know some of what I feel, I hope you understand that I mean what I say with all of my heart darling, and that I thank my lucky stars that I have had the experience of loving you. even if it was only from afar, it has been so amazing... I will always wish for more, but if I never get that chance I want you to know that I will ALWAYS love you, Steven! FOREVER!
That's the place!
. I have tried this before, but..I'm sure that he never walked around this thread, then I gave up 
