Did the unthinkable (my Aikido journey)

TDWoj

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Thank you, cookie. Yes, aikido is great for some types of arthritis, and it was a shame about your husband's friend. It's painful at first, but the pain goes away, because the pain comes from lack of movement. A lesson learned the hard way! (And I speak from experience about that!)

Sorry I've been away for so long - I had an unexpected influx of work that's kept me busy (though not bringing in as much money as I'd hoped). Hopefully, things will slow down soon so I can catch up with my other responsibilities here.

I went for a nerve conduction test. Unpleasant, but not painful (not really). The good news is, the nerves in my back are not permanently damaged, although I will never get the reflex back in my left knee. The nerves are just "irritated" and I will likely continue to suffer from numbness and tingling for a while longer. No surgery or cortisone shots required just yet, either. I still have to take care not to fall straight down on my tail bone because of the dislocated vertabra.

I was able to get some physiotherapy, and that has helped tremendously. I have exercises that I have to do at home now to strengthen my back.

As a result of my father's insistence that I drive down east to pick up stuff from his apartment (he's paying for the trip, so I couldn't very well say no), I will be going to a seminar in Montreal being taught by Yamada Sensei (of the North American Aikido Federation) and Osawa Sensei of Hombu dojo. I went to a seminar last fall taught by Yamada Sensei, and I have to tell you, I've got the most terrible crush on him, now, and I'd follow him like a puppy anywhere he went (funds permitting).

I decided to go to the seminar because I had to drive through Montreal anyway, so why not? And, as I mentioned, my father's paying for the trip (although he doesn't know why I'm electing to stay 2 nights in Montreal instead of just zipping on through as I have done in the distant past, on account of I still haven't told him I'm taking aikido).

I continue to have problems doing forward rolls. However, in spite of this, I have decided after all to take my 4th kyu test in September. I'd been in some doubt about that, because I can't do the ukemi requirements, which would likely mean I would not pass the test, but that shouldn't stop me from trying. I know they sometimes give passes to people with physical disabilities, and part of the problem I've been having with forward rolls is related to my physical problems. So maybe I'll be able to slide through this test. Probably wouldn't be able to slide through 3rd kyu, but maybe this one. I hope.

In the meantime, I continue to practice. I hope now that the weather is warmer and I'll be riding my bike to and from the dojo (and elsewhere as it is my main means of transportation during the summer), I will be able to lose some more weight and perhaps that will help with the forward rolls problems I've been having.

Thank you all for your continuing interest in my aikido adventures! I'm going to be doing this for as long as I can. And I'll continue to report for as long as you can stand it! :D
 

matt.m

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TD,

That is amazing. I am inspired and have a similar story. One I will share hopefully of inspiration. Although I do not take Aikido I have great respect for it. With that being said here is my story.

As a youth and into my early 20's I was very athletic: Track, wrestling, hapkido, judo etc. While my time in the Marine Corps (92-97) I was severly injured. I have very bad back problems as well as knee problems. My father who is a master in hapkido told me I should go back to class to improve mobility. I am in two leg braces and had a back brace and cane. Three months back in class regularly and I can now do a full split and head high kicking. Untill knee replacement I will not be able to get rid of the leg braces, but the flexibility sure helps.

TD: I am quite proud of you for sure, you have a great class and good teachers around to support you. They have it right, you are in a good spot where you need to be. At my school we have a saying which is "Keep Pushing". TD, I say this to you as well because we all need help along the way.

-Hoshin: Meaning self defense, self respect.
 

TDWoj

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Thank you, matt.m.

I have a small setback to report: the pain from the herniated disc is back, and it is excruciating, just as bad as it was before. This time, not even aikido is giving me any relief from it.

It flared up again when I started riding my bicycle around May 1st, and has been getting steadily worse since then.

I hope this is just a temporary setback and that I have not inflicted any permanent damage on the nerve. I'm still going to attend the seminar in Montreal, I'm just going to have to be extra, extra careful.

:(
 

suziwong

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TDWoj said:
Thank you, matt.m.

I have a small setback to report: the pain from the herniated disc is back, and it is excruciating, just as bad as it was before. This time, not even aikido is giving me any relief from it.

It flared up again when I started riding my bicycle around May 1st, and has been getting steadily worse since then.

I hope this is just a temporary setback and that I have not inflicted any permanent damage on the nerve. I'm still going to attend the seminar in Montreal, I'm just going to have to be extra, extra careful.

:(

I am soooooooooooo sorry for your healthy problems again..:(

but I am happy you are here again..

WELLLCOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK and I hope this time you stay long...

All My Love

suzi
 

bani

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A few weeks ago, I started as well learning Aikido. And I have to say, that was one of the best decisions I made in my whole life. It helps me a lot, becoming calm and relaxed and getting more and more self-confidence and self assurance.
Its so great to hear, that other people made the same experiences as me...
bani
 

TDWoj

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Welcome to the site, and welcome to aikido! I hope you choose to continue studying it for a long time!

Sorry I haven't been around lately. I was working beaverishly, and then had to go on a trip down east to visit my father (he paid for the trip, so I could hardly say "no"), and then when I returned... to tell you the truth, I haven't got the faintest idea what's been keeping me busy for the last three weeks, but I know something has....

My back problems have returned. My doctor wanted me to stop taking aikido for 6 weeks. I tried; but I started putting on weight at an alarming rate from the lack of activity, and I could feel my joints starting to stiffen up almost immediately, so I've effected a compromise: I'm suspending ukemi practice for 6 weeks (ukemi practice proved to be irritating the nerve, leaving me in pain for hours on end after practice, and I can't risk the irritation turning into a permanent injury), but I continue to go to class to work on the techniques, and to keep up the stretching.

Actually, my not doing ukemi is proving to be a benefit to both myself and other students. It's forcing us to slow down, to really practice precision. I have to learn ways to adapt aikido so that I am not using strength.

Last week, there was another round of testing (not for me, though, I haven't got enough days yet). The last group testing were 3 guys (including Whiz Kid) for 4th kyu.

It was absolutely terrifying.

These guys were whipping each other around like nothing I've seen before. "Wiping the mat" wasn't just a figure of speech; these guys were giving each other tatami-burn, going so fast, it was a wonder the judges could see anything. Ukes were forced to take hard break falls and high-speed ukemi (at one point, one guy almost landed in the judges' lap).

It looked pretty impressive.

I say, it looked....

Everyone passed. Then came the judges' comments....

"Too fast..." "Sloppy footwork..." "You guys looked like you were dancing..." "You weren't doing aikido..." "It's not about how fast or how strong you are..."

These three guys had been practicing with each other in the days leading up to the test, calling themselves the "4th kyu" club. They were pretty confident going into the test that they'd nailed the techniques solid (by the way, none of them got the weapons requirements exactly right, either).

After the test, you never saw three more embarrassed guys. They've been slinking around the dojo ever since, and if anyone mentions "how did the testing go", you get a lot of embarrassed hemming and hawing and then an abrupt change of subject.

While I was watching the test, my heart just sank watching what looked like a pretty impressive display of speed and technique. I'm a slow moving, lumbering object at best, and there is no way I can move like that.

I'd pretty much made up my mind I wasn't going to take any more tests, because I can't do the ukemi techniques (for our 4th kyu test, you're required to do my yoko kaiten from a stationary position as well as from kotegaeshi, and "shoulder to shoulder" from kokyodosa. I can't do any of that.). I'm told it's possible to get exemptions, especially since my back is preventing me from doing any ukemi at all at the moment, so I've got my fingers crossed I can get an exemption and maybe do my 4th kyu in September.

But there's no way I'm going to be going at warp speed the way these guys were.

In other news, we had Mary Heiny Sensei come to our dojo for a dojo-member only seminar. She was absolutely delightful, and I'm now her devoted acolyte (sorry, Yamada Sensei; you've been bumped to second place now). She's so tiny and frail and she was sending our black belts tail over teakettle with hardly a movement at all, and she had so many wonderful stories to tell about O Sensei and her days at Hombu and Shingu dojos.

I want to be just like Mary Heiny Sensei.

More news later.
 

TDWoj

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Just another quick update.

My back problems persist, but I've been able to start practicing ukemi again. I can usually tell when the nerve starts becoming irritated, so I stop ukemi right away, and just go into a stretch from that point on.

No, I still can't do a forward roll of any description, though I think there's been a slight - very slight - improvement in rolling over the left shoulder. I've lately been able just to touch lightly with the right hand instead of using it as a major support as I'm going over.

This could take a while.

Mind you, it's taken me nearly a year and a half of practice just to do a simple back roll over the right shoulder. The left shoulder, no problem, butt goes properly over. On the right side, though, I tended to collapse, and then, suddenly, a couple of months ago, I wasn't. Now it's like 8 tries out of 10 that I can do it properly. So, I guess there's hope!

I've been practicing the elements for the 4th kyu test, but really, I'm not sure I'm going to be taking the test. For once, my name isn't first on the list.

Last night, in the first class, we did a 4th kyu technique and one of the black belts picked me for a partner, excusing himself from another who wanted to work with him, saying he wanted to work with me because I was "ranking". He seems to think I'll be taking the 4th kyu test....

I'll wait and see if our sensei asks me, first.

Aside from the ukemi problems, the other area I'm not having much success in is the suwari waza techniques - shomenuchi ikkyo, katetori nikkyo and katetori sankyo. I'm doing my best to get my weight down, which I think is contributing to the problem, but again, there's no way I'm going to get enough weight off by September so that I can move more freely on my knees.

I've discovered that going for a walk for an hour a day is really helping with my back problems. I really hope that continuing to train (carefully), walking, weight loss and doing those exercises the physiotherapist gave me (which I have to confess I don't really believe in, but I do them anyway) will help the pain go away. I'm just not a very patient person....
 

TDWoj

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Just another little update.

My back is slowly improving - I'm only in pain about 40% of the day instead of 80% of the day now. Walking really helps. I've also found that one of the exercises the physiotherapist gave me for my back, while not doing much for my back, is doing wonders for my upper arm strength - "sloppy pushups". I noticed the difference right away when I started practicing with the bokken again this past week. I can actually control it much better now that I have stronger arms.

I went to free practice today and, I couldn't believe it - I practiced weapons for 3 straight hours! And then another half hour of practice doing 4th kyu techniques. Whee!

There was a kibbitzer standing outside and he was asking about what we were doing. He wanted to know what you would do against a punch. So my partner did tsuki and I took him by surprise by doing kotegaeshi (he was expecting me to do something else). The guy at the door was suitably impressed! So, by the way, was my partner.

I still don't know if I'll be doing the 4th kyu test in September. I'll have enough hours - the first time I'll have slightly over the required hours rather than majorly over the required hours - and most of the people I've worked with tell me I'm ready to take the test. It's just those pesky ukemi requirements... they've suggested I should speak to our sensei and ask her to exempt me from the ukemi requirements, but I just don't know if I should.

Worked with Whiz Kid last week. He dumped me on my tailbone (the one place the doctor told me I MUST NOT FALL), and I had to exit the class. Fortunately, it was near the end of class, and also fortunately, I didn't suffer any ill effects, though I wasn't able to sit comfortably for about a day afterwards.

On the other hand, there is actually a benefit to working with him (much as I try to avoid it, on account of I don't want to get any more injuries). I do actually have to apply everything I know about aikido to get him to go down.

And in another cruel twist of fate, arthritis has developed in my hands. Some days my hands are so stiff I can barely get them to move, and the pain is excruciating. Although I have to say that today, working with jo and bokken, my hands were less painful than they had been in a while. I guess that qualifies as "exercise" for the hands....

So, I'm still plugging away at it, a year and a half since I began. I still go to 5 classes per week (four regular classes and the free practice on Sunday). I keep hoping that the forward ukemi will "happen", even though my right hip still hasn't improved much in flexibility, and I hope that by losing more weight, that will help in my quest to do forward ukemi easily and without fear.
 

ORANGATUANG

Wildfire
Who's been an busy girl eh?..good on you TD ..I have an question you or some one else maybe able to help me as i know buc-she about this martial arts stuff...Is there such an person as an Grand -Master?...with females do they reach such an high place in martial arts?..hope some one can help me..thanks..who knows Steven might drop in and tell me..sureeeeee..
 

TDWoj

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ORANGATUANG said:
Who's been an busy girl eh?..good on you TD ..I have an question you or some one else maybe able to help me as i know buc-she about this martial arts stuff...Is there such an person as an Grand -Master?...with females do they reach such an high place in martial arts?..hope some one can help me..thanks..who knows Steven might drop in and tell me..sureeeeee..

I don't know about other martial arts.

Dan levels after 3rd dan (the last dan test) are granted based on what you give back to aikido, in terms of teaching, holding seminars, etc. Upper level dan levels are all about your accumulated experience based on how much time you spend actually doing aikido. (That's my understanding of the process; I'm sure someone with a better understanding will chime in and correct my misapprehensions.)

I was at a Yoshinkan demo a few months ago and I noticed with interest that while there were women in the beginners levels, there were no women among the black belts - and every one of the (North American) men at black belt level (except for this one rather ethereal-looking fellow in a white hakama who did only weapons kata) were built like weighlifters (though the 8th-dan instructor from Japan was a little fellow).

Next year when the MMA show comes to Toronto, I'll fork out the $50 just to go see the demos and see how many women there are in the higher ranks. There aren't many, that, I know for sure.
 

TDWoj

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Well, Heather, as I said, that's the information I have; others might have different information, and if so, I invite them to share it here.

Just a one little thing before I go...

I've decided to take the 4th kyu test even though I'm not ready for it and I still can't do the ukemi. Sensei said it was okay. I know I won't do as well on this test as I had the others but I feel it's important to take the test now rather than wait until December for the next round of testing. It doesn't help that I'm going away for a week's holiday (in about one hour, in fact) so I'll lose yet another week of practice; on the other hand, I'm feeling pretty burnt out so I think a week of resting both my mind and my body will be beneficial. I'm taking along a bokken and my jo to practice the kata on the beach (that'll freak a few people out, I'm sure!).

See you all in a week!
 

TDWoj

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Just a quick update.

I passed my 4th kyu test this evening. Things I need to work on - ma ai (spelling?) (this is the distance between nage and uke) and extension, particularly in ikkyo type techniques. Other than that, I once again surprised everyone (me included) with my good technique. Even my weapons... oh, yes, I forgot to mention, the assistant weapons instructor told me in last week's class that he thought I had good technique; all I have to do now is relax my shoulders (that'll happen - as if).

Now, if I could just learn how to do a forward roll....

There is a seminar this weekend here in Toronto with Donovan Waite Sensei. I will be going (back pain permitting). Of course, being a 4th kyu now one would think I could do a forward roll... well, I'll just have to keep working on it, I guess!

It'll be two years come January since I started taking aikido. Please, God, let my body allow me to continue....
 

kokoro

Protector
Congratulations on passing your grading!! now relax and spend a little more time on your weapons, if you have good technique there, use it. Also, if you focus more on what you find difficult, not only will you get better, but the things you have found 'easier'/have good ability in, will get better by default!

Don't give up TD, you'll get there!:cool:

kokoro
 

TDWoj

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Thanks, kokoro!

I've been having more than the usual amount of pain in my back. This is getting ridiculous - five and a half months of constant, excruciating pain. When the pain is sciatic-nerve related, aikido helps. When the pain is sharp, or a muscle spasm, aikido doesn't help. I've been missing a lot of days because some days I have both, and I find taking falls when I have both kinds of pain makes things very slightly worse.

In other news...

There was a seminar at the Japanese Canadian Cultural Centre a couple of weeks ago. I didn't participate, as I didn't have any money and my time that weekend was a bit squeezed, although I did manage to stop in and watch the Saturday afternoon class. Mostly, I wanted to see the testing.

There were two testing for ni-dan. I didn't think they were all that good, but hey, I'm only a white belt, so what do I know?
 

TDWoj

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An interesting class, today. Actually, an interesting experience.

No, I still can't do a forward roll...

I've been experiencing what apparently is quite common among dedicated students - I've reached a kind of plateau, where I don't seem to be getting any better and even having off days of 'worse'. It's been a bit depressing and disheartening, but I continue to go to class and try to tough it out, even though it doesn't feel like I'm progressing.

Today's class is usually taught by our head instructor, but she's in Copenhagen this week, teaching a seminar there (any Danish aikidoka here, attending?), so the Tuesday night instructor taught this morning's class. We did mostly 4th kyu test level techniques - sankyo, ikkyo-nikkyo, from ushiro tekubitori attack.

Then, at the end of class, randori practice.

As it turned out, I was the last one to be nage. There were four attackers. In the past, I've never done very well in the randori practice - I could never get the co-ordination between hands and feet and body moving, so I was just dreading it.

Not quite sure what happened, but everything suddenly seemed to fall into place this time around. The instructor kept pointing out how good my technique was; he also pointed out something I was doing most of the others hadn't been doing - I was adjusting to uke. If I stepped in and uke resisted going in one direction I - apparently - adjusted my stance, shifted my centre and threw the other way.

But it didn't end there.

The other students, in their randori practice, threw each uke twice. Randori, therefore, lasted about 30 seconds for each. I don't know what possessed the instructor, but after he pointed out my technique to the other students, he told me to continue and I ended up doing randori for over two minutes.

The other students gave me a round of applause. I couldn't believe I'd lasted that long (without screwing up the technique). Two minutes of randori - I thought my lungs were going to burst. I can't believe I lasted two whole minutes!

Okay, so after two years I still can't do a forward roll - but I lasted two minutes in a randori.

:) :) :)

Oh, and I had my first teaching experience today, as well - due to a weird set of circumstances, there was no instructor the kids' class, so I ended up having to teach the class. And, as it happened, it was the biggest class we'd had to date, 14 kids in the class. Yikes! Thank goodness next week I'll be back to being an assistant!

Two minute randori - my lungs are still screaming in pain.
 

shihonage

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I'm very glad to see you're still in the game, TDWoj :) This relationship with Aikido is definitely not a one night stand for you :)
 

TDWoj

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shihonage said:
I'm very glad to see you're still in the game, TDWoj :) This relationship with Aikido is definitely not a one night stand for you :)

Thanks, shihonage. I'm pressing on despite my many setbacks caused by my physical limitations.

And, um...

(drum roll please)

I did a very creditable front roll in tonight's class.

In fact, I did two!

(TD jumps up and down for joy)

I know this because

a) it felt right

and

b) the instructor was watching me and announced, "that's a pretty good front roll you just did!"

When I say it felt right, I mean that I went into the roll and knew that I had gone from shoulder diagonally across to the opposite hip without collapsing either my arm or onto the hip on the wrong side. It was just right; it felt right, it looked right from the vantage point of my instructor.

Oh. My. Goodness.

!

A couple of days ago I was crossing the street and when I got to the curb, I tripped. I do recall hitting my knee going down, but I did NOT land face down on the sidewalk or throw out my hands the way people fall when they fall forward (the way I used to!). I don't know what happened exactly, except that when I actually came to a stop, I realised from the position I ended up in that I had done my yoko kaitan, and, furthermore, must have gone smoothly over my shoulders with good arm extension because I didn't roll over my purse nor did my elbows collapse and hit the concrete. Except for hitting my knee I felt like no other part of me even touched the ground.

This guy came running up to me and asked me if I was okay.

I wonder what it looked like to him....

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Oh, yes - and I also must mention, I did my first break fall this week as well.

Only 8 years and two months to go before I'm a beginner! (according to O Sensei, anyway!)


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(-TD, happy happy happy)
 
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