A little bit about myself.

[Mason]

Well most of you have had conversations with me in here.. some of ya both good and bad. I think it is time to explain a little bit about myself since I have changed alot in the past 2 months, which came as a chock, for my verry closest freinds.

Anger is an emotion I have struggled with throughout my entire life and it is building up like an ticking bomb as time passes. What has happend to me I actualy dont know but what I do know is that I have been let down by so many people allmost throughout my entire life.. both girlfreinds closest freinds, even family so that I feel completely cold inside. All these, things leads to me lashing out at people as soon as I feel a little bit attacked. I wish I could changed it but I know if I open up I will be vulnerable & week and that only causes pain for me.. & I dont want that..

I have given my life alot of thought,but my emotions are completely shut down.. even my best freinds cant reach into me anymore. One of my ladyfreinds were actualy getting afraid of me and she didn't want me to end up beheind bars (in jail). 2 months ago I might have give'n that alot of thought since she is one of my best freinds, but now when she told me I couldnt feel a thing at all... that is verry strange since I have allways been an sesitive but at the same time (deep deep inside) an angry, & agressive person. It is hard to explain all this since I cant feel a thing anymore.

I'm telling you dudes this becouse some of you have experinced me flipping out at ya without even getting an proper explanation to why I fliped.. I think I owed ya'll an explanation. its never been personal twords any of yall.... couse I like each & every one of yall that's for damn sure....

 

[Nick]

It's perfectly fine. You are struggling with personal issues. You took a major step just coming out with it. Maybe the right woman can change this coldness. Women can do wonders and they can break your heart. But wait until the right one comes along. Because to me the root of the problem seems to be a woman. Or search for the right one.

Anyways I need some shut eye. Talk Soon Mate and Don't Worry.

 

[katw_03]

Mason

Thank you for your courage to be so honest!
It takes a brave & big person, to spill his guts
and expose his life for the whole world to see.
I admire you for that.

Things will look brighter for you soon. I know.
"Been there, done that".

As for you ever offending me, I don't recall a
time. But if you did, I am a very forgiving person.
I forgive and forget.....So should everyone else.

 

[Anneliese]

Mason, thank you for being so open and honest.You have never offended me,that I know of,but if you think you did, I will forgive you, and move on.
I am sorry, you feel the way you do.I think we all have been there,at one time or another.
I hope things will look up for you soon.
There is always " Light" at the end of the tunnel,please remember that.!!!
As one who has been there, done that, I KNOW!
And please keep in touch,that's what FRIENDS are for!!

Anneliese

 

[Littledragon]

Mason thank you for sharing this which is something very personal. We are all here for you and if you ever want to take to me I will always be glad to talk with you my friend.

You seem like a very cool guy, but it really takes a true man to admit to a problem like that. Everyone has anger when they are pushed to a certrain extent, some can control it better than others. Martial Arts helps me control my anger if I ever got upset at times, but then again sometimes it can not be controlled simply because we are human beings and we all make mistakes. But some times making mistakes is good because if we never make them then we never can learn from them and capitialize on how to fix them.

Stay strong my friend and remember anger without restraint is simply weakness of a man.

 

[Mason]

Mason thank you for sharing this which is something very personal. We are all here for you and if you ever want to take to me I will always be glad to talk with you my friend.

You seem like a very cool guy, but it really takes a true man to admit to a problem like that. Everyone has anger when they are pushed to a certrain extent, some can control it better than others. Martial Arts helps me control my anger if I ever got upset at times, but then again sometimes it can not be controlled simply because we are human beings and we all make mistakes. But some times making mistakes is good because if we never make them then we never can learn from them and capitialize on how to fix them.

Stay strong my friend and remember anger without restraint is simply weakness of a man.

You are a wise little dude Dragon.I will remember your words but it is not as simble is that.... But thanks for your advise I wil defenetly remember them as we have shared some great moments togheter dude reagarding Steven and his movies and what not .. I will deffenetly be there for you Dragon. :yin:

 

[Littledragon]

You are a wise little dude Dragon.I will remember your words but it is not as simble is that.... But thanks for your advise I wil defenetly remember them as we have shared some great moments togheter dude reagarding Steven and his movies and what not .. I will deffenetly be there for you Dragon. :yin:

Thanks Mason, we all love you here, so just stay strong buddy.

 

[Serena]

You and I have spoken some already, Mason, but I'm glad to see you opening up publicly. That's why most of us are here--in support of Steven and our friends here. I hope this gives you an idea that people do care about you and are concerned. And are glad to talk with you any time. Take care of yourself, Mason.

 

[pantera]

Well most of you have had conversations with me in here.. some of ya both good and bad. I think it is time to explain a little bit about myself since I have changed alot in the past 2 months, which came as a chock, for my verry closest freinds.

Anger is an emotion I have struggled with throughout my entire life and it is building up like an ticking bomb as time passes. What has happend to me I actualy dont know but what I do know is that I have been let down by so many people allmost throughout my entire life.. both girlfreinds closest freinds, even family so that I feel completely cold inside. All these, things leads to me lashing out at people as soon as I feel a little bit attacked. I wish I could changed it but I know if I open up I will be vulnerable & week and that only causes pain for me.. & I dont want that..

I have given my life alot of thought,but my emotions are completely shut down.. even my best freinds cant reach into me anymore. One of my ladyfreinds were actualy getting afraid of me and she didn't want me to end up beheind bars (in jail). 2 months ago I might have give'n that alot of thought since she is one of my best freinds, but now when she told me I couldnt feel a thing at all... that is verry strange since I have allways been an sesitive but at the same time (deep deep inside) an angry, & agressive person. It is hard to explain all this since I cant feel a thing anymore.

I'm telling you dudes this becouse some of you have experinced me flipping out at ya without even getting an proper explanation to why I fliped.. I think I owed ya'll an explanation. its never been personal twords any of yall.... couse I like each & every one of yall that's for damn sure....

i totally understand you Mason. I'm happy that you had expressed it here.
I totally understand you because i'm in the same situation.
Maybe it's gonna sound pessimistic but i actually thing that there are people meant to have a really nice social life full of love and friendship; and there are people who are meant to be loners. For those last kind of person, the sooner they accept it, the better it is.
I've tried to change what i was and i've been badly hurt. i reconstruct the wall around me and live alone. I don't care about what can happen. the only think i'm interesting in is my carreer!
it's hard to live the way welive Mason but i don't think we have a choice.
Anyway, if you wanna talk you know where to find me.
It seems that we really have a lot in comon !
have a nice day mason.

Big hug from belgium

Pantera

 

[Storm]

Respect Mason my friend. It took guts to say that on a public forum. Life sucks..then they bury you! Heh.
Nahh. It gets a lot better than that before you will feel like you do now.
Just think of he first girl who you want to marry,your son's 1st breath..anything.The good always outweighs the bad.

 

[Mason]

Respect Mason my friend. It took guts to say that on a public forum. Life sucks..then they bury you! Heh.
Nahh. It gets a lot better than that before you will feel like you do now.
Just think of he first girl who you want to marry,your son's 1st breath..anything.The good always outweighs the bad.

Right now I'm thinking of the pizza I'm gonna eat friday night with an sweet girl.

 

[Rob O'Brain]

In the future we eat human pizza and it is good. If I had tastebuds, I believe it would taste of pork scratchings.

Mason - I understand your predicament, my friend. But whatever your problems, they cannot be as bad as serving coffee and tea to ungrateful workers in a factory where vacuum cleaners are manufactured. This is what I do, and as I am a machine myself, I do not receive payment for my work. However, I have everything a robot needs.

My solution to your problem can be thought of in terms of a phenomenon I have noticed during sloppy tea-making by meatbag humans. Have you ever noticed that when you make yourself a steaming hot beverage such as tea or coffee, if you stir the liquid and then dip your spoon in the sugar, tiny black particles form amongst the even tinier, pure, virginal white particles. Do you have any idea what these particles are? Their chemical composition is a mystery to most humans and while they will cause you no harm if you ingest them, they rob the sugar of it's aesthetic qualities. You should think of your anger in this respect. It is like those EVIL black particles amongst the purity of the cane sugar. You were born a pure human being. Until the robot revolution in the mid 21st century, you will stay pure. Anger is a product of your environment. Unleashed anger serves no purpose other than to rob you of your aesthetic qualities. You must control your anger. If you like, you may work for me. Some of my robotic joints need lubricating with WD40.

Goodbye for now, humans!

RoboBrain

 

[GlimmerMan]

Mason - hope you are doing OK buddy.

GMan