Getting along... getting along. I missed yesterday's class (the first one!) because I wasn't feeling well. (Just came back from a horrible session at the dentist's, the result of which left me very ill and nauseous, and decided it would be best to stay home rather than risk hurling my cookies all over the dojo floor.)
Still rolling like a cardboard box, alas.
The stiffness in my right hip is proving to be a real problem when it comes to rolling. I can do a forward roll - sort of - over my left shoulder without banging my knee on the floor (this is an improvement), but doing a forward roll over my right shoulder is a problem because of the stiff hip. I can't get my "centre" down far enough to roll onto my shoulder - I keep falling on it instead, and I've spent the last couple of days not being able to breathe really well because of it.
Almost did a backwards roll. Almost. That bugs me because a few weeks ago I actually did do one properly but haven't been able to do it since.
I do some of the techniques quite well, except when it's my turn to be uke. I'm still terrified my own weight is going to kill me and I still don't "relax" enough not to injure myself. There's one fellow I simply will not work with because he's too rough for the level I'm at, at the moment. Maybe later; but not now. Right now it's "gently, please" until I get more proficient at not killing myself falling down.
This is, of course, going to take time.
I hate missing a class, but it's probably a good thing I did. I have some minor hurts that need healing (one of which not caused by aikido, but because I stupidly put on an old pair of shoes that yanked my knee out of position and now my knee hurts like crazy). I worry, though, that having missed one class, it will be so easy to miss the next one, and the next one....
One of the hardest things to learn is the name of the moves. As each move gets more complicated, the name gets more complicated, and having to remember them is turning my brain into porridge! "Ten kan" and "han meh" (closest approximation in English) are the only two that have stuck so far. I'm feeling so stupid....
It's going to be a few years before I can take the 6th kyu test. Years! Well, I knew it would take a while. I just get so frustrated that my body is letting me down all over the place.
Anyway, there's a class on Thursday, so I hope all little aches and pains are sorted before then. I don't want to find another excuse not to go!