I'm not by myself at all. Several girlfriends who work at the school invited me to celebrate Christmas eve and day with their families.
Also, Tom and the children have called me several times today. We have cell phones that are phone to phone. He has his and I have mine so it is like being in the same house together. The conversation is free and frequent.
As far as jobs, I am online working on that now. I haven't seriously searched for full time jobs until last week. Some things happened that made me decide to look out for myself. The catalyst was more than one thing involving MANY people. Mom seemed to be worried that we were having marriage trouble, that's not the case, I think this may be one of the best decisions I have made during the whole 15 years. He's OK with it. Also, I told him to feel free to tell the family the issues.